Midnight hours
The midnight hours are the worst
People should warn you more about that
The hours between dusk and dawn seem like an eternity
They creep on painfully slow...minutes stretch into hours...
All you do is lie in the dark and think
You're exhausted; you'd give anything to sleep
But you can't
You're torn between the sad thoughts
That continue to break your heart
And the happy memories of your loved one lost
You think of what you could have done more of...
And the things you didn't do enough of...
And the future chances now gone...
You toss and turn and sleep finally claims you...
A few minutes at a time...but it is never for long...
Because the sorrow momentarily forgotten... "
-Author Unknown
A Mother's Grief
You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go
How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see
You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream
into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?
No one will let me
say the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child
who in your arms grows cold?
Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their childs casket,
watched it perched above a grave?
You cannot imagine
what it was like for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say "My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.
I swear that I'll remember
till the day I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul.
by Kelly Cummings
Don't Tell
Don't tell me that you understand,
Don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.
My life is filled with selfishness,
My pain is all I see,
But I need you and your love...
Unconditionally.
Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care."
Author Unknown
Loss of A Child
The moment that I knew you had died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheek.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.
For those who still have their children,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.
Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.
Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care."
-Author Unknown
Lost My Child Today
I lost my child today.
People came to weep and cry
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed.
They struggled to find words to say,
To try to take the pain away,
I walked the floor in disbelief.
I lost my child today.
I lost my child last month.
Most of the people went away,
Some still call and some still stay.
I wait to wake up from this dream,
This can't be real! I want to scream.
Yet everything is locked inside,
God, help me, I just want to die.
I lost my child last month.
I lost my child last year.
Now people who had been, have gone.
I sit and struggle all day long
To bear the pain so deep inside,
And now my friends just question, "Why?",
"Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song,
Good Heavens! It has been so long!".
I lost my child last year.
Time has not moved on for me.
The numbness has disappeared,
My eyes have shed so many tears.
I see the look upon your face,
"You must move on and leave this place."
Yet I am trapped right here in time,
The song's the same, as is the rhyme.
I lost my child....... ..TODAY.
Author unknown
Mention My Child
Go ahead and mention my child,
The one who died you know,
Don't worry about hurting me further,
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending she didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that she has been missed.
You ask me how I'm doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.
-Author Unknown
